Sunday, September 11, 2016

9/11: Mourning Innocence Lost



Scrolling down social media walls on this day, one will not have to go far before one sees a meme with the picture of the twin towers saying “Never Forget 9/11.”  I see these memes and I see pictures of some of the flight crew members who lost their lives; I see the number of first responders who lost their lives (as if the lives of the other innocents are somehow a different loss).  I see bald eagles over the pentagon, American flags over the twin towers, I see some very thoughtful posts recalling where one was when it happened.  And as I look I have mixed feelings of extreme sadness mixed with a feeling that somehow it is all a fraud.  And so it got me thinking: why do we revere 9/11 so much? Are there any other holidays we remember or revere?  And what makes it different from other holidays or other sad events?
               
 The only other day that I can think comes close to having the same mournful reflection on a single event is Pearl Harbor Day.  Some might say Memorial Day and Veteran’s Day have a reverence to them, but I disagree.  First they do not mourn a single event.  Second, when you have car and mattress sales on a holiday, there is no real reverence.  Those days only matter to those who have lost someone in battle, or have someone they know who was in a battle.  When it comes to our culture as a whole, we do not revere these days.  So what do 9/11 and Pearl Harbor Day have in common?  Well, of course both were days in which we were attacked on our own soil by a foreign entity.  They are days when “They” attacked “Us” for no apparent reason.  It is my belief we remember these days, and we revere these days culturally because it supports our cultural tribalism, our nationalism; we even call today “Patriot Day.”  Nothing unites a nation like a common enemy, and nothing justifies violence like an attack on the innocent.  We need these days to justify our own violence.  Am I off?  Perhaps.
             
   If it is the loss of innocence we seek to mourn, then one could wonder why we don’t have other days of National Mourning and Reflection.  We do not have a day of mourning for the Oklahoma City Bombing, which was the 2nd largest terrorist attack on “our soil.”  Why?  Timothy McVeigh was one of our own.  It really doesn’t add to our nationalist/tribalist pride.  How about a national day of mourning for the children killed in Sandy Hook, CT; could there be a more vivid example of innocence lost?  Or maybe the number is not enough.  How about a day to remember the innocence that were killed as a result of our military action in the Iraq War (which we justified because of 9/11)?  No? Maybe it is the number of American Lives; in that case why do we not have a day to remember those lives lost in The American Civil War, the war in which the most Americans died?  No.  Are we still obsessed then with American innocent lives?  Why not have a day to mourn those lives lost in the slave trade, in slavery, and in years of racist violence?  Of course we have Martin Luther King Jr. Day, but that celebrates the vision of a man, not the loss of innocent lives.  And then what about the loss of Native American lives and culture, should we not have a day to mourn them? Again, we can feel bad about it, but to take a day to mourn that loss may be a bit much.  
               
 Now, one might protest that we cannot mourn every sad event that has taken place, and I will answer you are correct.  But take note what days we do revere?  They are days in which we can with good conscience say, “They attacked us, and we will never forget.”  Forget, or forgive?  After 9/11 this nation was in fear and rage, and our leaders used that rage and fear to invade a sovereign country that had nothing to do with 9/11.  We didn’t care…we wanted revenge, and we have blood on our hands as a result.  9/11 has been used as the main reason for our “war on terror,” in which we have used drone warfare, bombing of other nations, and torture as methods to win our justified war. In this war, how many innocents have we killed going after suspected terrorists?  What is the moral ratio of innocent lives lost to suspected terrorist lives eliminated?  And how about our service men and women who fought?  How do we take care of them when they come home?  Nationalism preaches the greatest feat of heroism is to die for your country, and implicitly preaches the worst thing you can do is to come back damaged physically or mentally.  How we treat our veterans is a disgrace.  For many (not all) the memory of 9/11 fuels this blood lust, this vengeance, and this mentality that we are absolutely justified to kill them (whether innocent or not), because they attacked us first.
               
 And so that is why I mourn on 9/11.  I did not lose anyone on this day.  But to my generation, we lost our country as we knew it.  We lost it to blind nationalism, vengeance, and war.  We saws our values of due process and 4th Amendment rights crumble.  Worse, we saw our nation do the same crimes to other nations that was done to us (we have killed innocent lives because of our own sense of self-righteous justice).  If it is innocence you want to mourn, then surely you are right to mourn this day.  For we became the killer of innocence too.  And the worst: through it all many cry “God Bless America?!?”  This can be absolutely justified if one is not a Christian.  But if one is a Christian, how could they utter such words after what we have done?

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.  If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn him the other also.”

Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.”

“Do not judge, and you will not be judged.  Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.  Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over will be poured into your lap.  For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” –Jesus of Nazareth, Luke 5
               
 It is quite proper to reflect on this day.  But there is a profound difference between remembering and grieving; and for our national culture, I fear we use this day to grind the axe, instead of burying the hatchet.  And in doing so we betray wisdom and our values.  To those who lost family and friends on this day; the loss is incomprehensible, it is a daily pain, no holiday can take that away.  For those who were there, remembering is a healthy way to process, to heal, but again that does not need a holiday.  But as a nation, what are really doing on Patriot Day?